I never want you to think that I was desperate for just ANY man. I hope you understand that it was for you that I prayed. I ask God that as time began to close in and He prepared our paths to cross that He would reveal my heart to you in a way that no other man would ever understand. Although I never actively searched for you, I have been actively preparing myself. Seeking after the heart of God so that I will better understand how to protect yours. I have given myself completely to prayer so that I will know how to cover you and call down the promises of God over your life.
While I have prayed for you often, I have never been consumed with WHERE you were because I knew that you needed this time to allow God to make you WHO you needed to be for me. Know that every heartache and disappointment that you've experienced has only been a channel to direct you in my direction. God knew that everything that you went through would make you the man that you are today. Waiting was not always easy but I knew that it was necessary. It was in my waiting that I started to fully love who I was. I knew that if I didn't love me, I wouldn't know how to allow you to love me. I spent time embracing my singleness and learned to appreciate my time alone. I wanted to make sure that when you entered my life my answer wouldn't be yes just because I didn't want to be alone. I wanted my yes to be "YES" simply because you are the fulfillment of God's promise to me. In this time, I have learned to love my life and all of the people who have been placed in it. I have traveled, enjoyed new things, and cherished many of the old things. So know that when you found me I wasn't thirsty because I had lived a full satisfying life. The only desperation I felt was to fulfill the purpose of God for my life through our lives together.
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Sulisa
8/10/2016 03:57:36 am
This is amazing.
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Marshunda
8/10/2016 06:58:17 am
Thank you so much! I just wanted to share my heart.
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